| Things are totally going to crap right now lol like little things were building up before but now I've been hit in the facce with a tonne of bricks and you know what really weird!
my mom's totally on a whole nother level of upset than I am and nothing even happened to her. She's so upset it made me go from being distraught to not caring at all. But there's still this dull quake in the back of my mind about how I can't ignore it when my life is falling from underneath me... I want to fight the thought away but it's true when your life falls apart that's not somethign you can be unbothered by you have to take charge and initiate change because you (I) refuse to give up and have someone tell you (me) what is and what isn't!!! You (I) must go against that part of you (me) that would just take the blow and keep on rolling. The only thing wrong with this scenario is I would feel better just rolling with it even though that'll change EVERYTHING I've officially fallen apart and I'm scared. |
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| Sooooooooooooo I was going to wait a year then post another just to see how i felt but it ached for me to see that I get on every other day and I leave nothings yes lots of nothings. Well anyways i just got a combo duel polo plaid short set and I'm mondo excited yes MONDO and it's the color of this entry cool yeah??? hmmm buuuuut I frequent the areas of Myspace now so if you choose not to talk to me here talk to me there BUT remember to announce yourself before you try to talk to me I'm not a friend whore i have and emotional attacthment to everyone on myspace so please tell me who you are because i don't take kindly to anonymous strangers. nope not at all www.myspace.com/zercksieze love love love ~X~
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| Well well well i like cheese and alfredo sauce on Chicken pizza it's delicious andif you like it you're automatically cool in my book capiche yum yum yum yum yum delicioso
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| yes he's amazing
So I only come to Xanga now when Myspacei s down like now it's down and as i've read it's been down since 6:40 it's now 11:07 so I'm on Xanga reading aboyut the coolst guy ever His name is Julien and he's in Pennsylvainia and I think if i met him in real life I would die ecause no one is that great he's like the most perfect guy you could ever meet oh dang listen to me sounding like an awe inspired lil school girl who's looking at her favorite actor I don't care i love him to death and in my mind he is the best friend I've always wanted but never had because I just couldn't find them everything he says is like an extension of what i had just been talking about moments before well except for the animal thing I don't favor animals but I think they're cool and my favorite animal is the octopus i love them lil guys theyre soooooooo cute yes they are
but anyways Back to the point i love this guy named Julien who I've never met and who seems to have many friends and an ok life i know nothing about him save that we have almost the exact same intrests and no one in CO knows I'm bisexual this is all very confusing because I take rpide in being the only one I KNOW who can hide themselves completely and no one has a clue not even his best friend in the whole world or the one he cares about more than himself why am I speaking in third person??????? Oh Gosh well yes now if he doesn't already know I wnt him to know I think he is amazing and if I ever met him i would die because he is too good to be true and I don't deserve to meet the man who could be GOD
That's you Julien
i'm done I'm gonna check if that myspace is workin cause i got friends to talk to and no time to do it |
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| yes well I'd forgotten my password to come back into my xanga so I've been frequenting on myspace for the last few months
I would like to thank my distant friend Gurubushisama for opening a door so that I may find a way back to myself
Thank you Gurubishisama
I <3 U |
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